When my person first died, it suddenly felt like nothing else mattered. The things that once felt urgent no longer held the same weight. 

My whole world stopped, and I just didn’t care about certain things as much as I used to.

If you’ve ever felt like life has no point after losing someone you love, please know you’re not alone. As a grief therapist who have walked alongside many grieving hearts, this is something I hear often. 

In this blog, I write about my reflections on grief and meaning and suggest questions to reflect on as you process your grief.

Have you ever caught yourself laughing, smiling, or having a good day after loss—only to feel a wave of guilt wash over you?

Maybe you noticed you weren’t spending every moment thinking about your person, or you sought out distractions from the heaviness of grief.

In my own grief journey, moments of lightness sometimes felt like a betrayal. How could I allow myself to feel joy when my person’s life was cut short?

It is important to know that it is a common experience in grief to feel guilty for not being immersed in sadness all the time.

“When are you going to get over it?” That was the question someone asked me—just two weeks after a significant and traumatic loss. I was too stunned to answer. I don’t remember how I responded, but I’ll never forget how wrong that question felt.

This moment reflects a common misunderstanding about grief: that there’s a set timeline for “moving on.” That eventually, we should reach acceptance and stop expressing pain or sadness.

The five stages were originally intended to describe the emotional experience of people facing their own death. Over time, the model became widely applied to people grieving the loss of others. But it was never meant to be a universal roadmap for grief.

Since I was a child, I have asked questions about death. I’ve always been a deep thinker — some might say an old soul. I’ve never known a time when I wasn’t aware that death could come at any moment.

Maybe you’ve felt something similar — that quiet, uneasy knowing in your daily life, alongside the love you carry for those around you. Or maybe you’re carrying grief as you care for a significant person in your life, in their final days. This experience of grieving before a death occurs can feel confusing and complex — it is called anticipatory grief.